Something Happened.

   Something happened my love... Or should I call you my migraine? For mind racing, heart pacing, palms sweating, I lost it.
   It wasn't lost, I gave it. But now its gone forever. Never can I be called the name that I hated, but now in a queer sort of way- miss. You took it, but you did not steal. For a gift it was of mine to you, and I love that I have given you something so precious for the pink and red day that is just around the corner.
   You were so polite, and oh so charming. I was willing and happy and I loved everything. But the thing about now throbbing and yearning and hoping and hating, is that I will never be the same. You before had changed my mind, but now you've changed me outside as well.
   I wanted to scream, I thought that I might. But it felt too amazing to scream. So I lay and enjoy and hope and pray as you took my gift and tucked it away. But my...friend, how do I know you appreciate my gift, instead of treat is as nothing... I gave you my first kiss on the lips from any boy before, and I hope you don't take that lightly. Because i don't.
   I had the guts to tell you. and you granted the wish that was strongest in my heart. Your lips met mine in the dark and I felt my heart...change. Who I thought you were is now changed, who I love is now changed, and who I am is now changed..but for the better. I think. "There's your kiss darling..."
   Everything was static, everything was a shock, and everything was such a spinning jolt to every nerve to every sense and I knew that night no other night would be the same... And I loved it.
   I loved every second and I drooled over every memory and a dopey smile surely showed what I felt for you... "There's your kiss darling..."
   You called me darling... I hope I truly am your darling... Because when your lips met mine so softly... so sweetly, I knew right then... That yours was all I wanted to be. But you cannot keep me, because of who I am... And my heart breaks... But will you promise me that everything was true? That my smiles weren't in vain?
   "There's your kiss darling..."