What do I do when All I want is you?

I fell into his trap,
only to get hurt
though in the beginning before it all began
I knew I would get hurt...
And that's exactly what I'd wanted.
well now down in the dust
beaten scared and battered
I ponder the markings you've left in my heart
and I wish that I'd never come running.
Because I acted like a toy
you treated my like a toy...
but hey,
I was begging.
I was not opposed to being used
and I loved every second of your lies.
But now in the dark as my love for you decays,
I wonder if any of it was worth it.
The smiles
the wasted hours
money
laughs
chances.
and i realize,
that down here i lay
while up there another girl
most likely waits
for the same fate...
and I laugh.